I Miss beng 13

   Yes I know sounds crazy right? how could any one in their right mind miss that? but you miss understand me. I was the average middle class kid, I always managed to buy something from the store (money obviously from my parents) my room was always clean (obviously from my parents). Had the coolest toys (also my parents) food Made, Clothes washed, Clothes bought they all caqme from my parents. But at 13 I didn't see that. I didn't see that I had a free lace to live shit and eat. I didn't see that n had a personal maid clock and teddy bear. most importantly I didn't see I had th best two best friends a child could ask for.
   what I seen at 13 was two over bearing adults constantly nagging at me, telling me what to do, not letting me wear what I want when I want and didn't let me go hang out with friends. at 13  was fearless I thought nothing could happen to me and I wanted to be OUTSIDE. I wanted a boyfriend a cellphone and wanted to stay nights with my bestie Sandra. My Mother wasn't haven't that.she couldn't tell me but back in 2008 to 2009 boston wasn't safe. everyday on the news there was kids falling off roofs to getting stabbed. there was on day on my school bus we were told to face the left because the was a brutal stabbing of a teen on Washington st and erie st. There was another time my school got into lockdown because and eight grader of ours named Steven Odom was shot outside the building. there even was another little girl who was accidentally shot by a stray bullet which has bound  a wheel chair for life asking the suspect just for an apology. but I didn't see that because I wasn't allowed to see it.
    my other best friend was my sister, I mean she was the only one I cold hang out with, im thankful for that everyday. I think maybe if I was given a reason as to why I wasn't allowed to do some much I would've listened instead of wanting to rebel. But now that I'm much older I can look back and understand why. losing someone your close to alone is the biggest pain and hardest thing to go through. even animals suffer so imagine the loss of your child. My parents weren't restricting me the were saving my youth. they didn't want their baby to grow up and I can finally say I understand that now. if I can go back to a time were I was careless I had to say, that I miss being 13.

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