Every ones been there, and don't count out the men. The first love the committed trust that you place within them. All your secrets and tears your dreams and hopes on your future with who you consider the "one". for them to start with the lies. they tell you i'm coming yet never show something your not used to. then they start to accuse you or act different towards you, some might have experienced degrading remarks from the man or woman they love. Every single inch of your body and mind tells you to leave and run or that they are running around you. but you constantly make that excuse for them in hopes that the lies you tell yourself you will believe. you pressure and pressure yourself to believe in a love that was never there because in all reality it was the thrill of the ride they were into. the thought and taste of flesh and purity that came from your skin is something they couldn't really do with out. But at the same time their running tired of the bullshit they were facing was nothing but the usual. They were used to (men/woman) you. Not you but the same (woman/men) people like you that fell for the same tricks and smiles to lure you in until your hooked. i'm not saying every ones the same but they done it before.
The tricks about situations like this is that you've become addicted to the fake love. You become victim to a never ending cycle of remaining the victim, or turning into an attacker for you become addicted not to the person and the way they are themselves No, you become addicted to feeling of a relief of heart break. The relief that they still love you and always had and that they would make your dream come true. While every one around you pulls their hair out heading to the dollar store to buy you ass some cheap ass paper towels, to help your ass dry your tears, for you to return. it isn't until your able to see your situation through someone else's eyes for you to realize that in fact your heart has been broken and remains broken do to the fact your looking for love in the wrong places... for you to really know what love feels like you must first love yourself it was a lesson I had to learn and everyone must go through..
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